Lately, I’ve found myself to be in a bit of a rut. I don’t wake up to an alarm, heck, I don’t even set an alarm! Luckily, I wake up with just enough time to hurry Ella out of bed, get her dressed, teeth brushed, and rush out the door for preschool drop-off. Thankfully, I remembered it was her turn to bring in snack and I rolled out of bed with enough time to make a quick run to Target (not good for my budget) and pick up some Halloween themed snacks. Still dressed in my pjs, I convinced Brent to drop Ella off at preschool and I sulked on the couch. What has gotten into me? I have no motivation for anything.

After that day, I realized I owed myself more than that. I had recently had coffee with a high school friend regarding a possible job. Yes, I could barely make it out of my pjs by 9 am but I was job searching. Well, semi-job searching. With some hours of my day opening up since Ella’s in school, I’ve been feeling lost. Sure, I can jam pack hours of undone cleaning into those daily time slots. But to me, that was settling. Do I want to be someone that settles? No, that’s never been my outlook. So I had coffee, chit chatted about the job that I definitely was not ready for, and instead caught up on life and our daily happenings. That’s when it struck me…

I no longer set goals for myself. I have no outside employer demanding my time, offering promotions or overseeing my daily activity during the productive parts of the day. I had recently signed up for a well-known 30-day challenge that I didn’t even complete. 30-days. That was all I needed to devote. Not 52 weeks a year, minus 4 weeks of vacation, but 30 days. If I can’t even commit 30 days, how do I plan on surviving going back to a full time job where the demands are more frequent than 30 days. Reality check, I have not been living my life with intention. From here on out, I plan to devote each day to one small task comprised on my bucket list, both big and small items. First up, completing that 30 day challenge I committed to and never finished. Here goes nothing…..